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It was a casual chat. And a possibility was pointed out to me. Against all odds. One in a thousand trillions. But still... there was that chance. I didn't believe it could be true. And I forgot about it. For a couple of days, at least. Then I noticed a little detail pointing in that direction. And I convinced myself to ignore it. Until I noticed one more detail. And then that idea from that casual chat grew and started becoming alive. I had to accept its existence. Still holding on to the fact that it could not be true, it wasn't anything more than one in a thousand trillions possibility. But the mind works on its own. It was processing the idea. It made plans, just in case. And more details started coming out to indicate that it might be true. Denial. Absolute denial from my part to accept it could happen. But then again, sometimes you deny something so strongly only because you are actually afraid it is real. I had the way to check but I refused to do it because I was so sure it would be a waste of time. And then I started having more and more hints that I am wrong and it is really happening. So I had to quit my resistance and check. I actually got stressed over it! This is how much the crazy idea had grown in my subconscious! As it tuns out, I was right in the beginning, shit like that only happens in books and movies. After that I played with the idea of trying to find a way to restrain my imagination for a while, but then again, I love it for being so alive, wild, vivid! So damn convincing! It can cause me trouble, but it can also give me endless pleasure and I will pay the price for that as many times as I have to.