Victim of Changes

It is remarkable how the human mind works... You decide to change something, you think it through, plan it, prepare yourself.

And you proceed, believing that since you made the choice you will adjust easily and you will have control of the situation. Mind you, nature knows better. Because however complicated and evolved it may be, the way human mind functions is still nature's work. And it has more levels than you can see, or control for that matter.

You go on as if everything is fine and sorted out in your head and you actually believe it is. This is one of the many ways your subconscious has to buy the time and space it needs to do what has to be done. It keeps processing and adjusting, evaluating and reprogramming itself to the new conditions. It discreetly affects some of your behaviours and actions relying on your confidence in your instincts.

And only after everything is eventually clarified and settled, you somehow feel more like yourself. You stop feeling that you are holding back for some unknown reason, you no longer act strangely, the urge to close down on yourself finally goes away. A weight is lifted from your chest and this is when you see what as been happening. All of these amazing things, going on in your own mind, without your knowledge! No matter how long ago you made the change you wanted, this is the moment that you actually start living it. You can now fully experience your new beginning, with all the fears and insecurities gone and there is no better feeling than this!